Cold Cruel World
Sometimes it feels like the world’s on my shoulders
Everything around me closing in, it’s starts to grow colder
It’s like I’m sitting on death row and waitin’ for conclusion
Shits real fucked up, my brains filled with much confusion
Do you know what it is to sit a 3am
With a gun pressed to your temple on your knees prayin’
Or in the bathroom, on the floor, a handfull of pills
Cause the fuckin’ rent’s due and you can’t pay bills
Have you ever felt the cold grip of death in your heart
I’m talkin’ rips right in your cavity and pulls it apart
Ten motherfuckin’ seconds just from ending this shit
Flames rising from the ashes that your about to commit
Have you ever stopped your car somewhere far from everythin’
Sat a half an hour, just thinkin’ of a better way
To put your soul to rest and set your mind at ease
Put the barrel in my mouth, I wanna sleep for all eternity
Dear cold cruel world why am I here?
I never asked to be alive
Everyday it’s just a struggle even to survive
Dear please juse wipe away the tears
I’ll be better off when I’m gone
In my own private Hell and left all alone
Somany reasons just to leave this fuckin’ planet
Pressure gets to me so much, god damn, I just can’t stand it
People hatin’, credit problems, bitch be fuckin’ my friends
A million reasons, circumstances for your soul to transend
Nobody like me, I’m a loser, parents wish I was dead
I’m overweight, can’t get a date, I’ll turn my walls to red
Unlock the door, turn up the music, flip the T.V. screen
I’ll leave a bloody fuckin’ mess off for my moms to clean
It’s’s to the point that I can’t stand it, I can’t even try to cope
And you don’t know me, you can’t help me, you can’t offer me no hope
It’s too late to try and stop it, I have lost the fuckin’ war
I ain’t gonna write no fuckin’ letter, leave my answers on the floor
I’m a do it I swear, don’t even think I’m lyin’
Nobody gone remember me, nobody gone be cryin’
All alone in my death like I was in life
Let me take my final breath, they can bury me tonight
Dear cold cruel world why am I here?
I never asked to be alive
Everyday it’s just a struggle even to survive
Dear please juse wipe away the tears
I’ll be better off when I’m gone
In my own private Hell and left all alone
You won’t miss me when I’m gone
(Flames risin’, flames risin’)
I know you did me so wrong
I CAN DO ANYTHING
I can be cold hearted, I can get out smarted
I can get a party started, I can dance and go retarded
I can go dumb, I can have fun
I can be a good father or I can be a good son
I can make you cry when you listen to my pain
I can make you feel like our story is the same
I can make a change, I can be a better change
I can say whiles pays and I can spit high flames
I can score 1200 on my SAT’s
Plus I got 1200s calling MK3s
All of my techniques can bring a freak to her knees
I can flow like breeze and I can smoke big trees
I can sleep a day away, I can sell a pound of weed
I can keep a grow room straight at 68 degrees
I can shoot some dice and take all your little money
I can make you laugh from all the things I’ve done funny
I can steal a car, trust me it ain’t that hard
I can shoot a 5th of crown on your corner boulevard
I can roll the best blunt, I can get messed up
I mostly got on dickies but I can get dressed up
I can smile in the rain, I can get ya hella high
And I wouldn’t be the truth if I could ever tell a lie
I could be a better guy, I can take it all and stride
And I can die happy because I can say I tried
I can rap like a pro, I can make a dope beat
I’m really good at doin dishes, pretty good at trimmin weed
I can make you feel special, I make you feel the pain
I’ll let you in my house if you get stuck out in the rain
I can be a smartass, I can fuck any bitch
I can have too big an ego, I can even make a wish
I can be a good friend and can be trusted too
I can be a good man and will not cheat on you
I can rock the stage, I can make love for days
I can buy a house and have a family after I get paid
I can believe it myself, I can really make it happen
I can be myself too, not try to change like Michael Jackson
I can be happy but sometimes I can be so depressed
I can be a lover or get my heart torn up from my chest
I can make mistakes, I can learn from that and try get better
I can try to get my feelings out when I’m feeling too much pressure
I can do whatever I want whenever I want because I’m my own boss
I can only admit that I’m wrong, half the time I’m like a coin toss
I can be realistic but I can still have a big dream
Fuck em, if they don’t show me no respect, I’ll do my own thing
Well everybody got they hopes and dreams
Evertime I wake up, I feel the pain like a thousand pins and needles falling like rain
Alone in my bedroom, alone with my pain
I try to cut it out with whiskey and things but when I dry up I wanna die again
Grab another bottle get high again
Just prayin’ that my momma don’t cry again
Evertime I wake up, I feel the pain like a thousand pins and needles falling like rain
Alone in my bedroom, alone with my pain
I try to cut it out with whiskey and things but when I dry up I wanna die again
Grab another bottle get high again
Just prayin’ that my momma don’t cry again
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| — | Hed PE |
